Your soul can lead you to happiness
In response to Coffee Challenge: This is my weekly newsletter.

A few years back, at the peak of my personal life and career, I felt depressed!
I had everything I ever wanted in my life would be an understatement. Yet, it was not enough for me.
The endless debate in my mind: am I actually living or merely existing? left a void in my heart. I felt suffocated by the monotonicity of life.
The vacuum inside me took control over me. No bleeding or pain. Only a haunting thought that I am incomplete.
I looked joyful on the outside. But in the quietness inside, My soul whispered to my mind: Is this all there is to life?
I was determined to find the answers.
A little background about my life at that time
I opted to work from home since my firstborn and had limited social contact[my husband and kids]. I was living in a bubble. A small world.
I felt self-sufficient in the initial years. But I noticed that meeting new people fascinated me. And filled me with so much energy when our frequencies matched.
I lacked friends in my everyday life. My close friends lived in faraway states or countries in different time zones. And I needed some friends who I could bump into in the local stores or park.
I made efforts to build bridges instead of walls with like-minded people around me. And it started working like a charm. I found my best friend, a super cool fellow mom, a selfless sister, and a loving artist.
But after a while, the vacuum crept inside me again. So, I went out of my comfort zone and reached out to a wide circle[mommy’s groups on Facebook and Whatsapp] to see if I could help someone.
I soon discovered I found immense satisfaction and joy in helping people. I understood the most obvious: We all co-exist on this planet, and nobody deserves to feel alone in this journey.
The void was becoming smaller.
Finally, I decided to move close to my parents after 9 years of living in a foreign country. The sigh in my relief superseded my cry out of joy.
One fine morning, I was at the dentist with my mom to have her tooth extracted. I heard her cries as they pulled her tooth. Shivers ran through me as I held back my tears. Holding on to the table near me, I prayed to God to give strength to the strongest person I have known my entire life.
When we returned home, the void in me had dissolved in the mixed feelings of pain and love.
I felt useful again, after almost a decade.
I unraveled the mystery by taking leaps of faith in myself. By prioritising what matters to me the most.
I quit the American dream to return to my roots. To live life on my own terms and to the fullest.
I continue to be there for my friends while making new ones. And help strangers and people in need.
I find my purpose in helping others discover the joy within them.
The void in me has forever been replaced by overflowing love and gratitude.
I have never felt so complete.
What has this got to do with my writing?
In the process of finding myself and dissolving the void in me, a lot of self-reflection and analyses took place about life, love, meaning, and purpose.
The one thing I consistently did throughout this entire phase was Writing! Writing helped me identify my feelings about everything by giving names to the emotions.
To express me with no inhibitions.
Writing is my self-care. It is the mirror to my soul.
It helps me heal like nothing.
At the end of every pen session, my heart overflows with positivity, leaving no place for anything not-nice.
I feel a combined sense of accomplishment and pride.
I choose to live aloud with my words.
Pouring out the soul in my work, I can see the future self thanking me for a life well-lived.
I write to share my life experiences. With the hope, it will heal someone trying to fill their void. Or prevent it altogether in the first place.
The heart and soul of good writing is research; you should write not what you know but what you can find out about -Robert J. Sawyer
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© Tamil, 2022
Congratulations on reaching 100 likes!!! Very happy for you!!!
Hi Tamil, this is beautiful. I love the way you talked about writing and how I can feel from your words. It’s so immensely beautiful. You’re so close to 100 likes! All the best! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻